The addiction that grows


WritingI woke one morning not all that long ago and just knew that I had to get up and do what needed to be done.

I woke with a firm idea and action plan. I thought this is a crazy concept, perhaps it may just flow and work. Since that day the addiction has grown and shows no sign of stopping. From a concept, to a mind map, characters have developed, chapters have been written. And the waking hours are far to short so I get up earlier and feed the addiction.

Why because it wakes me from my sleep. This morning it woke at me 3am. I lay in bed and the vision of todays chapter formulated in my head. I knew the character and and how they would enter into the story.  Now I find myself developing the sub plot of this characters journey and even though I look at the time and think of what I should be doing I find myself refusing to budge.


Sorry kids you have to get your own dinner tonight is what I want to say.

Perhaps the washing will get its self off the line, or fingers crossed the thunderstorm heading this way just vanishes.

Good thing hubby just brought me a frozen coke there is enough sugar in that to keep me going until late tonight.

So the addiction grows the more I write the more I need to keep writing. Earnest Hemingway said it best “There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at the typewrite and bleed.”

Hubby can cook tonight for my bum is firmly planted on the chair and my fingers are dancing across the keyboard as I develop, explore and create the next chapter of an extraordinary journey.


all things change

change is beauty

change is beauty

The equinox is here again and as the wheel turns all things change. Be it spring for those in the north or autumn for those in the south one this is for sure, the days are now changing. Its time to embrace the cycles of life as the year moves forward.

For me personal I love the change in seasons, I love the nights becoming cooler and the days becoming short, of course I love the flip side of it as well when come background to warmth and long nights. Yet as I bid goodbye to summers warm kiss this year I find myself falling in love even more with the beauty of longer nights. Not because I feel I can sleep more in fact quiet the opposite. I feel have more time for me. Now as the sun takes longer to break the night sky I find myself rising earlier so I can embrace the beauty before dawn. It inspires me, it nourishes me and I find that the words I write in my conversation hour flow at a quicker pace, freely and effortlessly.  This time of year is seeing me fall in love with the words on the page, not just what I have written but of those that have been written by others I am inspired by the journey they have taken and the change they have allowed to flow in their lives in when they have wanted for life to stop and they let them off the crazy ride.

Tha autumn equinox like that of the spring brings a day of balance where day and night reside equally. For both its a time of being thankful and being balanced. If you are in the north you are about to welcome more daylight and this brings about it fun and play, times of new growth is there not only in your gardens but in your life. It’s a time for fertility of ideas and creativity. Now is the time for positive change. Go with it allow the energy to flow and bring abundance your way. For those of us in the south right now look at all you have been able to achieve of the warmer months, look at how your life has grown and taken leaps forward. Allow yourself to acknowledge everything you have completed. Be thankful for what you have achieved, as the nights begin to take hold you will be able to sit back and enjoy your bounty. Its a time to sit for moment and reflect ensuring that you bring your body into balance. When you align with the change in season and the balance of light and dark you allow for new opportunities to be revealed both for those in the north and southern hemisphere.

Each new season brings about subtle adjustments to the way we live even down to the food we eat. For me I am bidding farewell for now to lush summer fruits, mangoes, peaches and nectarines and welcoming hearty pears and apples. My evening meal is warmer, my children love to eat soup with thick crusty bread. Roast dinners with root vegetables will start to make their way onto our plates. My children are asking for a jumper as they greet the crisp morning air. Today as we step outside just before the sun was up we watch the beauty of a hot-air balloon take in the glory of the waking day. Oh how I love the changes all around right now.

What ever season you are heading into what ever change is embracing your life right now, know that it’s all apart of the where you are meant to be. Live now in the present moment rather than wishing for a different time. Allow the natural cycles of life to envelope you and take you where you need to go, don’t fight against change its going to happen allow it to. As the year moves on so do we, how hard this change becomes is down to how much we are prepared to let go, embrace, and accept that all things change.

Josephine Wall Breath of Gaia

Josephine Wall Breath of Gaia

Walk your own path not that of another


Do I dare share, what if I tell someone, what if they then take it away from me. Once bitten twice shy is that not how it goes. 1be yourself

We live in a world that is shrinking. Our identity is on show for the world to see. Technology allows us to search, review, analyse and grasp concepts that we would not have access to 30 years ago. Yet we all still cry out for originality for our individual self. We are so connected and disconnected. We share our lives now with strangers, people we have never meet and then we call them friends, or acquaintances. We trust people more and yet less at the same time. Each of us wanting to walk our own path in life. Yet are fearful that now that we are show others may take some of it away and make it theirs, so we hide away our truth scared of loosing us and our ideas.

The world is full of people all trying to walk their path. Some are in a rush others dawdle, others aimless follow the latest carved path not knowing where it takes them. Some sit on the side for a bit then see a path that looks like it could bring them dividends, they jump on board and try make it their own. Some people’s paths will cross with others, some dance around and merging for time then drifting apart, while others run parallel and never meet at. All along everyone still walking trying to find their niche in the world.

In a world were there is boundless opportunity and endless ideas it baffles me that people now find it hard to be creative and inventive in their own right. Rather they rely on the creativity and imagination of others, and then market it as their own. It’s then the same people who have chosen to walk the path of another that cry foul that it is not working for them …. Really I wonder why?

Just step back and look and see how much of you is actually apart of what you are doing, any of it, or has the path you walk been created by someone else? Because when there is none of you in it, then there is no creativity,  there is no passion, and there is just your ego believing you know better. We all know that ego knows how to fool people and it has fooled you.

Instead of taking the path that someone else has worked hard on. Take inspiration from what is around you. Expand this and create your own ideas, visions, carve out your own uniqueness in the path you walk. You have what you need to create your own niche, its inside of you already. You just have allowed laziness to convince you it is easier to re-market yourself in the imagery of another.

A copy is never as good as the original and you were born to be original not some cheap copy that has no moral or value behind it. While ideas will ultimate intertwine with others around you. Some merging and some running parallel the path you walk needs to contain you  and your ideas, your understanding, your learning, your personality, your passion. For although you make walk hand in hand on a similar path to another ultimately you will always end up walking your own path.

Oscar Wilde summed it up beautifully when he said ” be yourself everyone else is already taken”

Rolling stones and gathered moss


What is the saying  A rolling stone gathers no mossmindfull rest

This may be true but let it roll long enough and far enough eventually it hits a place and looses momentum then what. The moss begins to grow, the question is how long that stone stays there covered in moss before an event allows it to gain momentum again. The thunderstorm that brings sweeping rain shifting the stone from its resting place. The wild and wooly winds that bring down a tree branch that swings like a club catapulting the stone back into motion. The  bush walker who ponders and thinks about life while picking up the stone , perhaps to toss it away later on down the track.

And is gathering some moss really all that bad, a time to rest and be covered in lush green warmth, a bit like having a doona day I think!

The mind can be that rolling stone forever in motion never taking the time to stop. As we go through our daily lives we think, analyse, critic, chastise and repeat the mundane over and over again always moving in perpetual motion. Even our dreams have a our mind moving and thinking. And then the speed bump throws a little curve ball that help it come to a rest even if only for a short time. Trouble is some of us are so stuck in the motion of movement and thinking we don’t know how to stop and rest. We miss the sign that tells us to slow down and feel compelled to push through no matter what the cost of our mind, body, soul.

Gathering moss is not a bad thing, and taking time out is not a bad thing. The problem arises when we are the person who wont see the signs, we keep pushing forward. When we dont allow this natually resting state to happen our mind yells ENOUGH and finally stops! Sadly this happens way to often in today’s world. Why? Simply because we don’t allow ourselves to have a break. I have friends who are forced to take vacation time because they accumalted so much of it up at work…. they never stop. I have other friends who do so much for so many that they neglect themselves. Others yet just feel that they can not stop until they reach the end goal to which I ask “is that death? because you aint living right now.”

A friend once worked for a company that allowed 4 doona days a year, and that was on top of the annual sick level entitlement. Yes her job was stressful she dealt with people who could be abrasive; so they company took the step the value the employe and gave them the extra days. Lets face it we all would like a day were we didn’t have  to be a slave to the alarm clock and could just close the world away and lay in bed, or on the lounge and just rest.

So can we actually rest without having to take a whole day, without needing to get to state of forced STOP. rest

Yes we can, we just need to make the time for ourselves. We need to set aside 10 minuets in the day and allow it to be our time, some people now will say I don’t have 10 minutes, yes you do ….. more than likely that 10 minuets is given to some other task right now that does not serve you well. Think about it there is a spare 10 in those 1440 minuets that make up each day.

So what to do during those 10 minuets. REST bring the mind to a place of rest.

Sit in a place that you wont be interrupted. (set a timer if you need to, or pick out soft music that goes for 10 minuets )

Allow you mind to clear of all thoughts, listen to the sound of your breath.

Focus on your breath and then repeat in your mind the words ‘I am’

Dont add anything to these words just the words ‘I am’. As you repeat them over an over you allow the mind to become still.

Once your ten minuets is up allow yourself to be fully awake and in the present moment. Drink some water and get moving again. Your mind is ready for you to keep going forward, its ready for motion once again.

That small 10 minuets each day will allow your mind to become more resilient and resourceful when you need it most. Instead of coming to breaking point your mind will have tools it can now use to help in situation that arise. While a doona day every now and then may still be on the cards, these will days where you enjoy the comfort of your bed and not be retreating to it to hide from the world.

Life is for living and sometime living, means standing still and gathering moss. The moss is the rest and clarity we need to move forward, it’s just we miss the rest stop most of the time and push life

Conversation Hour


Seems that the world is only ever going to allow me 24 hours in the day when I feel like I need 48 or even 72 hours to get all I want done. Why is that there never seems conversationsto be enough time?

Well for me it because I can be a great procrastinate when I chose to be and that I also have so many creative ideas going at once that my time can get wasted jumping from one direction to another never completing anything.

So I have chosen to narrow the focus so that I can then expand my horizon, yes I know sounds a little backwards. However for my mind I need to focus solely on one creative project at time. I am still working on all of them, just narrowing to focus to daily individual devotion to each project. So I have now I have set up a timetable as to what I will be working on each day and at what time. For creative people this can be a daunting task, taking away the pure spontaneity of creation and deliberating focusing on it can for some seem to stifle the creative flow.  For me it has seen a growth in productivity.

It has also allowed me to clarify the direction of each project. Setting clear goals and deadlines. One of my biggest projects is a book series I am working on, while it has been floundering in the background for some time it is now full speed ahead with November 2014 as the deadline to have it completed, edited and art work done…. I never like to take on small projects.

At a writers workshop I attended a few years ago Lucy Cavendish advised everyone there  that the most important part of writing was to ‘show up’. If you showed up and wrote one full-page a day at the end of the year you would have a book with 365 pages in it. makes perfect sense when you look at it that way. So for the last few weeks I have been committed to showing up and writing a page a day. I call it my conversation hour. I have the conversation with the characters and their journey and you know what we have a great time.

Now I know I am expecting a lot and some may say setting my sights a little too high. Well while I understand that life happens and if need be time frames will shift. However as some who knows how easy it is to procrastinate I believe that some of us… a lot of us choose to let life happen and let it get in the way… after all we all look for a way out of doing things at some stage don’t we. So I have new-found determination to not allow trivial life moments and other people’s drama to hinder the progress.

My conversation hour will go on and on untill the project is finished, after all its only 1 out of the 24 hours I have been given each day to use as effectively I want to.

What will your 24 hours allow you to achieve ???   Life is magic



confused2Yesterday I had two people very close to me in my life use the word Discombobulated. They both used it in correct syntax and both described different turns of events. The first one described the physical discombobulated state of some one lost and confused as to their surroundings. While the second one described the mental state of frustration and confusion as to how they felt due to events unfolding around them.

The urban dictionary defines Discombobulate  as ‘One of those rare and wonderful words that means exactly what it sounds like. There is no word more onomatopoeic to confusion than discombobulate’.

It got me thinking why they chose to use this word rather than simply state confusion as the final outcome to what was happening. It certainly emphasised their position on the subject matter and to be honest made me laugh when it was used more than once that day. Not a word I would imagine many people throw into their daily conversations often.

Then it got me thinking how many people out there feel discombobulated? In everyday life how many people are walking around not knowing how they are feeling. So many people are unable to articulate  their feelings clearly. In some case when they try to explain these feelings they then leave the listener can feel confused. Can one really nail down the exact emotion of the events that have left them feeling discombobulated?

How many people are walking around not knowing which direction they are heading in life, aimlessly following the crowd rather than walking their own path. Just doing what the norm is. Not able to define the direction they want to head in. Then they wake up one day and think how did I get here? How did my life turn out this way? By this time they are so discombobulated that they don’t know how to get onto their path.

How sad to think that many of us at some stage in our life feel totally discombobulated so it got me thinking well what is the  antonym to this discombobulation? I was then feeling discombobulated myself as there are no antonyms. Can we not be the opposite of confused? surely not! Here are a few near antonyms offered by one dictionary : reassure, satisfy, enlighten, inform. Seriously slim pickings there.

However if you want a synonym for this word you have many to choose from :  adrift, addle, baffle, befuddle, bemused, bewilder, confound, confuse, disorient, fuddled, muddle, mystify, perplex, puzzle, vex. The list can go on and on, my personal favourites are bamboozled and flummox.

So now that I have had chance to digest the word discombobulated I plan to try to not use it, without a positive alternative I confuseddon’t wish to inject it into my conversations…. yet part of me just loves the word and the way it sounds when used correctly… perhaps the positive is the smile it brought to my face yesterday when used so often.

My final thoughts on discombobulated ….. it’s a fun word that I hope none of you feel or find yourself in that state to often.


Happiness Depends on …………….


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You all know the saying ‘if i had a dollar for every time some one said ….’  well for me I swear I would be rich if i had a dollar for every time someone didn’t fill in the blank with the word ME I hear it time and time again that happiness depends on everything but ME and when I say ‘me’ I truly do mean you there person reading or saying it.

Happiness depends on if I have the right partner ……..

Happiness depends on if I have the right number of children …….

Happiness depends on if I have the right job……………

Happiness depends on if I have the right house…….

Happiness depends on if I have enough money ……..

NO happiness depends on you YOU being Happy with You and that does not extend to any of those items listed above. Happiness is not something you obtain by accumulating external items, it is from within you that happiness comes. If you don’t like something about your life then you need to have a good look at why you feel it defines you. You can have the worst job in the world yet still be happy.  You can have no money yet still be happy. You don’t need a partner to be happy or even children. The right job, the perfect body, the right car …. the list may go on and on and yet these are all things that can be gone in the blink of an eye. And if they vanished or were removed from you what will you base your happiness on then?

To be truly happy learn to be happy from within, learn to love and be grateful for who you. Does it mean that you wont have an unhappy thought……no of course not, but it is just a thought and you have the power to change that. Stop searching for all the external items to fill you life with, images55and start working on fulfilling internally instead.

Be happy because you are you. Then you can say  Happiness depends on ME

Right Place – Right Time


synchronicity-2How many times have you just been somewhere at the right place at the right time and BAM you just hit jackpot, opportunity showed up and you grabbed it?

How many times have you thought WOW I am lucky, I get to now live the life I want? Be this  in business, personal life or family life,  or even the opportunity for change that you have been seeking, you are lucky right?

So was it luck or was it something much more?

When this happened did you feel the need to be in the place that day, did you go visit someone just feeling like you should, perhaps not knowing why. Did you make a wrong turn that actually turned into the correct turn?  I believe that belief in yourself got you there. You may not have been aware of it, however your heart and your mind knew it and combined they pushed you in the right direction. Synchronicity took over and it all feel together. The doors opened effortless and the opportunity presented itself. Your belief then allowed you to grab hold of it and make something of it.

So how do we get the belief in ourselves so that when it all flows and comes together we don’t miss it out on the opportunity.

  1. Let your dreams be bigger and more powerful than your fears, if your fear is bigger than the dream, the dream will seem out of reach forever.
  2. Stop listening to the negative talk of others, while the advice they give can be heartfelt and genuine sometimes its given so you don’t get hurt…. rather ask for their support without advice.
  3. Have an action plan and be open for it to change, having firm plans is fine but if you are not flexible you may find that the perfect opportunity slipped away because it was not boxed the way you thought it should be.
  4. Own your worth, we have all heard the saying “fake it till you make it” yet there comes a time when faking it no longer works and you need to OWN IT.
  5. Know your trigger points, know what allows fear and doubt to creep in and learn how to deal with it quickly so you can move forward.
  6. Have faith, not just in yourself but faith that you are there for a reason, the people you meet are seeking you out as much as you are seeking them out, opportunities can be symbiotic at times.
  7. Empower yourself, if need be grab a book read, do further studies, take up a hobby, what ever you ensure that it makes you feel great.
  8. Be you, no one else is a better you than you.

You need to take action to make opportunity come your way. When it does it times to stop second guessing and just start believing. Taking opportunity when it comes your ways can inspire others to grab opportunities that head their way… a ripple effect of inspiration allowing people to live the life they dream of. be you

Calm without fear


fearsSaturday morning and there is a sense of calm in our house. Everything is still up in the air after last weeks news of job loss and no income, a lot of things seem like they are so much further out of reach then they did before and uncertainty about the future still runs strong, yet there is calm.

There is calm because we choose it to be, there is calm because I choose not to function in fear. Fear grabbed hold on Thursday and Friday and I am sure it will grab hold again and again, yet I will choose how I deal with it and I will choose to send it away. I have always loved this particular saying about fear:door

Fear knocked at the door, Fear answered the door, and Fear went away.

My home is for me my sanctuary, it where I feel comfortable, protected, loved. So my home has no place for fear to reside within it. Fear is the biggest killer of our hopes and dreams, it eats away at the soul-destroying it if allowed. I wont allow it to eat away at mine. While many of these dreams seem like they have been placed in a holding pattern for the present time they are still there and they are still achievable. They may take a little more work, a little more tenacity to achieve, but they will be achieved. The beauty is that these dreams while in a holding pattern actually allow me to review them, they allow me to see them more clearly. Some may no longer be needed in my life, and some fuel stellar determination pushing me towards success.

If we allow fear to circle this holding pattern of dreams, as it does for so many of us, it throws life into chaos, yet it need not be that way. I choose that fear can be my friend, fear can show me when something truly is not right, like the person you meet who you just know to stay away from, when walking home late at night fear helps heighten the senses allowing us to make the trip safely. Yet fear for the sake of holding me back and turning my thoughts upside down is not my friend.

So how do I get rid of it and bring about the calm

  • meditation, this can be sitting quietly or walking in nature for me it brings clarity.
  • staying hydrated, sounds silly but the body needs to function correctly so that your mind is clear.
  • I wash negative and fearful thoughts away, I imagine fear going down the drain while I am in the shower, or washing my hands.
  • reading, take some time and read something inspirational, uplifting and heart warming.
  • laughter, learn to laugh and laugh often, fear hates laughter so laugh at it.
  • face it, a fear you hid or push out of site is still a fear that is allowed to reside in your mind, slowly eating away at it.
  • Surround yourself with the people you love, friends and family.

Fear is not a place I wish to live my life and so allowing it in for two days this week was not a pleasant experience, however once I faced it I was able to see clearly what had cause the fear and I am able to work on that and move past it. Allowing for a place of calm even while surrounded by uncertainty.relax

Fall down get back up


challaengeWow this year has really jumped forward with a bang. In the last week alone I have spoken to more people than ever before who are worried about job security, going through financial crisis and facing health dilemmas. Some would think of this as a bad start and that all these people are suffering, yet it’s quite the opposite. Yes there remains the element of stress, our lovely friend ego ensures we carry some of that with us through these times. However rather than allow their dreams to bust so many have spoken about being resilient and rising to the challenge. For me a challenge is just an opportunity waiting for you to look at it the right way.

During these time is not the challenge that’s important rather the way we respond to it. Do we lash out and cry foul of the universe and what it brings our way? Do we crumble and fall? Do we fall into a depression, get angry and waste time laying blame? Or do we stand up and face it head on? Do we say “I don’t like this but I can change it”? Do we ensure that we nurture ourselves during this time, keep positive and find outlets for stress?

Fall-7-Times-Stand-Up-8The greatest challenge for those facing upheaval in their life I believe is not whether they fall down, rather it’s to get back up and keep moving forward. When a person faces a challenge time they can become to the world around them either an inspiration or burden. For those with children no matter their age it is important to teach resilience, to become the inspiration. We do this by our actions, the words we speak and the response we give.

Life is not about living without bumps, jolts, hills or slides. It is however about a journey, how this journey looks is up to you. In my life my aim is to teach my children to enjoy the journey and to be able to stand back up after being knocked down. To do this my children are aware of the challenges we face. While we keep them informed of what is going on their young ages mean they don’t have to know every detail, yet enough to understand. We don’t walk around in our house pretending everything is perfect, yet we don’t allow negativity and doubt to take control. If we have a bad day we acknowledge it. I teach them how to keep calm, meditation if even for 2 minutes is amazing for this with young children. We do not shy away from our feelings, we talk them through. Most importantly they understand that as a family they are important to us. If they have advice to offer we listen to them, ensuring they grown up knowing how to think about solutions rather than focus on problems. By doing all of this we are building resilient children who are well equipped to change challenge into opportunity when needed in their